When we first lost Annabelle, I wondered how it would effect my singing. In the beginning I thought it would be months before I could get back to the worship team and singing in church. Through the past weeks, God again has used so many things including music to reach me, to heal me, to help me through this grief. I realized last week that singing and worshiping Him is actually helping me because no matter the circumstance, when He gives and when He takes away...He ALWAYS deserves to be praised and whether I'm singing a song to Him, about Him or just even a song about the way He loves me or helps me, it's a comfort to my soul in a way I cannot describe. Music does something to me that I will not ever begin to try and describe but it does, and I am so thankful for it. I decided to start back singing this week and went to my first practice tonight, since losing Annabelle. As I sat there singing the lyrics, I imagined Annabelle and sometimes I imagined our other children too, dancing around Jesus singing the same worship song to Him, but in heaven. It brought a smile to my face as I sang but also to my heart. I grieve deeply for her, but I have joy and hope knowing that she is where and she is doing what she was created to do, which is worshiping her Savior. That blesses me so much. I just look forward to the day when we all will be there together worshiping Him for eternity.
Here are some lyrics of several different songs that have really touched me in some way the past few days...
"When it gets hard You go before me as a shield
When its too late, You come behind me and You heal
Should my heart break when loves the only way
So be it Lord, may I be broken for love's sake" ~ Broken for love's sake by Tricia Brock



still praying for you... I've not forgotten. Those words are beautiful. When we lost our first I was playing on our church worship team (violin) and I felt the same... that it would be months before I could walk to the front and play... it was just two weeks before I realized that playing in worship was actually going to help me heal... the first week was hard. I felt like everyone was staring at me... but then it did wonders for my heart! So glad you are singing again - God is putting a new song in your heart and it will be more beautiful than before!
ReplyDeletestill praying for you... I've not forgotten. Those words are beautiful. When we lost our first I was playing on our church worship team (violin) and I felt the same... that it would be months before I could walk to the front and play... it was just two weeks before I realized that playing in worship was actually going to help me heal... the first week was hard. I felt like everyone was staring at me... but then it did wonders for my heart! So glad you are singing again - God is putting a new song in your heart and it will be more beautiful than before!
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